Life..... a Short Story.

This was the first blog I created during my college days. The first post was made in 2008 perhaps. So, the blog is almost a decade old. After 2010, I lost the access to the blog when Orkut was shut down and Yahoo also destroyed my email ID. Thanks a lot to Google for giving it back to me. Feeling great! It's like getting connected to an old friend after a long time. I am coming soon with more posts on this blog. Stay tuned. 

Tomorrow i am gonna have the 1st exam of my 7th semester of b.tech. But not feeling like studying. Thought to play with keyboard and typing.... and some of thoughts prevailing my mind now... life, complexity... and relations again the trio that makes me crazy always.... may be you too. but just can't escape. Childhood was more easier... because the way of thinking was simpler, with time, innocence is gone(?), patience is disturbed and i am lost somewhere in a series of questions....... more drawn to past, mistakes and the great unanswered question "WHY I DID THIS?" and missing the magic of present and ruining my future too... can't get rid of this? how? confession? but to whom? to myself? OK, it works partially, but not totally....... TO WHOM IT CONCERNS, after spending 22 years of my life, all i have come to know about myself is i am a kinda complicated person, i admit, but not too bad, often i fail to make people understood what i think and want and often it leads ...

“ When I got enough confidence, The stage was gone. When I was sure of losing, I won. When I needed people the most, They left me. When I learnt to dry my tears, I found a shoulder to cry on. When I mastered the skill of hating, Somebody started loving me .” It took some years from my life to understand that this is life and I lived it, I m living it & I’ll. So what’s the point to keep complaining about what I have not got? So trying to make my life as my masterpiece by all I have. One advice from some wise person was,” You can win life by all means. If you simply avoid two things, “Comparing” & “Expectation”… ” Yeah it works. Though I am not claiming that am someone who doesn’t expect anything from life or compare. That is not possible 100%. But you know what; it’s like minimizing the expectations and maximizing the happiness. Another important thing is “ Patience ”, I didn’t have this. ...

ENOUGH!!!!!!!! Yes, it was high time to say just this word to all the damn problems . Suddenly I realized that I was wasting all my time, brain, potential for some damn and silly causes.... which pretends as if they are something bigger, they are controlling my life....huuuuuuuuh.. Just some bloody bullshit and I was a perfect emotional fool ... I was vulnerable because I was wasting all my emotions and bla bla… on a wrong place (sometime person)... I have struggled with my hair a lot... I have bitten my nails a lot... I have explained and sometime tried to make out people my points.... but nobody is 1. Ready to hear. 2. Ready to stop pretension. 3. Ready to stop their "valuable suggestions without any price [??][Whatever] “ to other without getting the whole matter. 4. Ready to “ OIL their own MACHINE " . But they are always ready to... 1. Hold your hand tightly saying "you are my TRUE FRIEND [??]... And then opens up their knapsack to deliver you all the knowledge t...

After a long time suddenly I felt like writing something about a year, full of drama, surprises, love, faith, friendship, betrayal…….. A rare cocktai l. 2009, the starting of the year was not so happening, somehow I assumed that this year is going to be a dull boring another year of my life. But the God chuckled in heaven saying,” oh!! Really!!! “ It was January or February; it was a reunion with my school pals on the occasion of saraswati puja . At college it was fest+ masti .Like every day after a heavy session of adda, masti and bla bla…… suddenly we discovered we are going to make a documentary for NSS ASHA ….. The topic was social issues. First we were just roaming about from this to that nothing was fit and perfect sometimes script was ready but none was there to act and lots of problems... but we four , DD, me, Aninya,Annesha … overcame all those.Don’t know how exactly. We got a group, named, “ SQUARE ROUTE ”, from one of my friend. At last we choose the topic ‘ female ...

This night at home......and the prevailing silence around......make me nostalgic,it makes the road open in front of me to my childhood......the days when world around me was my heaven.....the days together with my joint and giant family.......ice creams at evening, n "Mourilogence"....sometimes i was in a crowd or sometime very alone,starring at the road,seen from "Chatal".....the "Aam gachh", our "maath" s.....the introduction with my first private tutor.....i acted like a monkey and she was fritghtened that i migth be fallen........ but you know, i am .... i did that very well. Then first day at my school.....i was surprised that why all children are crying and that thing took my cry away.... i liked the days at school very much, BIHAN PATHSHALA, a nursery school and i was there by maintaning the "Parampara" of my family. The teachers, i still wonder how i was so popular that still they can remember me in any meeting !!!!!!! my first...

Again back from college for Saraswati puja....let it be anything but most importantly these are holidays....dont know how it will be...but may be it will be a memorable one.Anyways feeling tired today due to train journey from durgapur to home, good night.Lets rock

Today is the ending of my holidays and again i have to go back to college,BCET, sometimes it rocks...feeling sad as holidays have gone but also feeling excited to meet the friends.... It's 11 pm now,still my bag is unpacked....mom is telling me to do it from yesterday but i just cant getting any enthusiasm to do it,really its a silly work until it becomes the 'Packing' of jerome k jerome(three men on a boat). ............... its 1 am now still i am relaxing....there's no chances to pack the bag........i am feeling the silence of night....street lights are covered by silky blanket of mist.Dogs are trying to avoid the bite of winter...the streets are seem to be sleeping in peace... i am watching all this from the window.yes it's open....No no i am not getting mad...i am just enjoying this night with freezy wind, sky and all of them who r still awake ..... But now it's too late ,now i am bound to pack my baggage.ok bye for now.good morning...

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shuru kore diye tumi amader pothcholata,kothay hariye gele............

Today,31st dec'08 ,the last day of the year will pass soon, then it will be a NEW YEAR ahead.lets have a look behind....... 2008,was started as years start...everyone says a year is a mixture of good and bad things.But i think there should be some balance.... I enjoyed the first college fest of my life,it was awesome...with friends,with new happiness....i was just flying high....after that FRESHER'S....it was also awesome.... During this period i got someone to worth..... a new definition of friendship,...PRO,my best friend. Then suddenly everything was shattered.....misunderstanding with friends....breaking of trust ...love and care....suddenly someone just threw down me from heaven to hell.......darkness were everywhere... But time kept it's promise..everything was started to be sorted out.....i was going to label this year as after all not a bad year....28th december'08 came and now i am bound to mark this year as one of the DARK year of my life..... but you know wha...

this is written in memory of my most favourite teacher mrs. Chaitali Ghosh, I never ever thought about writting this kind of things in memory of her.